I'm exhausted. What am I supposed to do? Moms are talking to each other about me and it feels like its spiraling. All because my child corrected another child about my pronouns while I wasn't even around.
I just wish we could move.
Never wanted to make it a big deal in my town, I was fine playing pretend to avoid this. I feel so guilty but also frustrated.
My kids are good kids, they don't deserve this.
Tried to come out to my mom as non-binary. Soon as I got on the topic of gender, she began to shut down.
"I don't want to discuss this."
Couldn't get to the part about about ME before she said:
"People can believe whatever they want, but I'll always see them as nutcases."
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Someone in my town was stabbed last night and another parent in the community thought it was a golden opportunity to take a swipe at me.
I seriously don't understand.
@Bobzorzz
When someone confronts me like this, I feel like, in that moment, I represent NB people. I want to remain calm, give them nothing to use as fodder for their hate. I don't want to be the example someone gives as a bad interaction with an NB. It's hard, but it's worth it.
@MrsViolence
I replied because I live in a small community and it isn't as simple as 'block and move on.' I shared because going through this is a lonely experience.
You seem proud of your platform, why use it to try and belittle someone going through a hard time?
Context, we were discussing the fact that I am probably going to be getting a double mastectomy... and she was all concerned about the reconstruction of my breasts, and I was trying to find a way to explain to her that I don't need them.
Well, it's happened. My child, who loves me for who I am, told their friend that my pronouns are they/them. Just got a message from their parents that they don't want our kids interacting anymore.
I am devastated... and feel oddly, guilty.
Apparently, my kid's friends see me as 'the cool mom' because, and I quote, 'you respect all gender and sexual identities while using gentle language.'
A shame that so many parents are setting the bar this low that basic decency makes you special.
Thank you to everyone who sent gifts to this little lamb. This adorable dress included!
We're holding our chins up high this birthday morning. Adversity be damned.
No one is going to dim her light.
Yesterday evening, my younger son (8) who is visiting his dad, was hit by a car while riding his bike. I only found out VIA EMAIL shortly after stream last night. (He survived.) I have been a complete wreck since. Please be patient with me in the days to come.
@James_M_Doyle_
You clearly have not, as the majority of the time (except when I am having a discussion about my gender identity and am still being misgendered during it) I let she/her by my chatters slide. People who DO frequent my streams can attest to that.
So, I posted the same picture of Gizmo in pride colours onto my personal socials and ended up having this interaction today with a neighbour.
Fun times.
Streamers. You do not own the members of your community. They are not obligated to show up, they are not required to chat. It is not their responsibility to pay your bills. Blaming your community, guilting your community, is not the way to grow. You are not entitled to success.
I've fought with this decision a lot over the last almost two years, but I think it's time to take this more seriously.
This last bout of covid was sort of the final nail.
Some community members got me a Mother's Day cameo from
@NeilNewbon
and told him about my struggles as an NB mom, with how local parents have been treating me and my family.
I have to say, this one bit in particular made me laugh and I needed it.
Thank you Neil & all of you.
My blood came back with high cardiac proteins. Indicating a heart attack. With this in mind I will be absent from socials for awhile. Thank you for your kind words.
After over a month of waiting, I finally have my biopsy results. Benign!
They believe I have a medical condition causing scar tissue to form around my milk glands, making them enlarge. I may still require surgery, but it's not cancer.
Tears of joy today. Finally a win.
The sweetest model mama
@TheArtGun
created a sheep avatar for Haylee's birthday. While she won't be using it to stream due to her age, we will make prerecorded content together with it. Full reveal after her birthday next month! SHEEP FAAAM.
As it stands, only one child has RSVPed to my daughter's birthday to say they are coming.
Every other year we've had more kids attend than we have room for. I'm trying not to let it get to me, but I'm scared at this point.
In bed, there is a knock at the door.
Ewe: Hi Mom, I just wanted to wish you a happy 20th Anniversary of Mean Girls.
Me: ....Did you come all the way up here just to make me feel old?
Ewe: Yes.
Bruh. Get out of your PJs, put down your keyboards, put your energy into something productive when it comes to your beliefs. Whatever those beliefs might be. Don't waste the time harassing someone who plays the game OR someone who has said they won't.
It changes nothing.
OH. MY. GOD.
@TheArtGun
has done it and made my second eldest Lamb, Ewenice (who wants to make content with me) her very own younger variation of my design. TY to everyone who came to the subathon in June to make this possible.
Made the decision to file a report with the school board, rather than the school. Board is located quite a bit away, I am more likely to be treated without bias. I will tell them I just want this instance of harassment noted in case it continues/recommendations of how to deal.
@Natsumi_Oni
I've been getting harassed by local mothers for two months.
I'm allowed to stand up for myself. All they do is question me. I am allowed to question back.
I think making assumptions about me is an escalation, frankly. Why do I have to be the punching bag?
I am not going to call this person out by name, because shaming them is not the point of me being upfront about this.
It was brought to my attention that a longtime member of my community who is also a streamer, made a discord announcement shaming people for showing up to my
"Haylee: Can we invite my boyfriend?
Me: Boyfriend, who is that?
Haylee: Andy....and Levi.
Me: Do they call themselves your boyfriend?
Haylee: Andy does... but Levi and I just have a special connection. You wouldn't get it."
....oh my god. 🤣First graders.
My first official cover song. Nowhere Generation by Rise Against. I wanted to pick something that conveyed how I feel and would speak to others who feel like I do. Super nervous. Hope you like it. Debut tomorrow.
#BoSheepCover
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#Vtubers
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#Envtuber
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#Live2D
I am taking the night off to comfort Ewe who is anxious right now w/ the news we unexpectedly received yesterday. I might make a board or something so people can write her messages of support while we wait to see a specialist next Monday. No child should have to go through this.
I woke up to an overwhelming amount of support this morning. I certainly did not expect it. I shared because I was feeling isolated by the peers where I live and honestly, being reminded that I am not alone is needed sometimes.
Thank you for your kindness.
People in their 20s acting scandalized by older adults being sexual is hilarious. A year away from 40 and am still freakier than most people I know.
When I am 50-60? My sex life is going to be WILD because I won't have kids living at home.
Here is a VTuber vs IRL of me and Ewenice from back when she was in kindergarten. Its my favorite pic of us together. (And not to worry, she is in HS and doesn't look like this tiny gal anymore.)
Removed my posts talking about my situation. I have received more than enough aid this morning, and do not want to accept more help than I need. Especially when so many are living through tough times.
Thank you to everyone who supported my family in this difficult spot.
My eldest on the spectrum signed up for the talent show. He'd done one back in grade 6 with his puppets to a standing ovation. This is his first year at this HS & he is in grade 11. He is so sweet/ brave and totally unassuming.
...I'm terrified his classmates won't get it 1/2
Hairdresser: Wait, you're turning how old?
Me: 39.
HD: You have fabulous skin, oh my god. Do you inject? It looks so natural.
Me: I don't go out into the sun.
HD: ....Oh...
I lost my cool on another vtuber today, after a year of no incidents. I've been proud of being more mellow following my heart issues.
I've taken a lot of crap from people irl who I can't comfortably sass in retaliation & for whatever reason, this one comment tossed a year of ->
It's all fun and games until your mother finds your lube bottle... right next to your bed.
And all you can think to say is...
"I like it to be a damn slip and slide."
Brava, me. Brava.
The individual I mentioned in my previous tweet has since reached out threatening to take their own life because of me. I protected their identity, but I am also trying to protect myself.
Please be kind with your words. I hope they get help, you should hope they do too.
My grandmother asked for all her IVs/tubes/everything to be taken out as of today, and the doctors says she won't survive more than a couple days like this, if that. As a result. BoSheep and
@Cimrai
will be on a temporary hiatus until my heart does a little healing.
If you are in your early twenties and currently cringe at people who are middle aged for being alternative, thriving and sexual. Let me just tell you..
You'll be one of us soon.
Don't forget to eject your personality at thirty-five and become a soulless husk per your ideals.
Trying so hard to stay positive, but it is getting very hard. Ramsey is still out of work, a near 20 year career in animation and not a single response to the many applications sent out. Animation is all he has done and a part-time retail position isn't going to cut it.
I am neurodivergent. ASD/ADHD/OCD. Sometimes, that means I am flakey/hard to get in touch with. BUT -- if you make it into 'best bud' zone (you know who you are) my friendship has no expiration date. You can not talk to me for months, and I'll act like no time has passed. 1/2
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@Ramsey_Sheep
walks over to me seductively, leans on the edge of the bed. "So... when can I expect you to..." He pauses, "do it for me?"
"....What?" I ask.
He licks his lips with heavy suggestion, waiting a beat before saying in his most sensual voice...
"Fortnite"
Reminder that when my daughter wanted an HP themed birthday, and I didn't wish to punish her for liking wizards. I spent HOURS handmaking items rather than spending a cent on official supplies, which would have been cheaper and easier. All because I did not want to fund JKR.
He did great. Spoke nice and clear, didn't even sound nervous. Unfortunately, I was privy to some not so kind comments being made by the peanut gallery. A bunch of kids who looked thoroughly awkward when they realized they were standing right beside his mother the entire time.
There have been an increase of troll gamers coming into my stream after matches. (Usually ones where I died and they lived. Which is, fun?)
I keep telling my community I am going to record a preroll to play when this happens and I finally got around to it.
Part of being a streamer is dealing with parasocial behavior. If you are unable to mentally handle that, you need to make sure your DMs are closed. Do not accept discord chats from non-friends. Do not accept friend invites. That is how you protect yourself. Failing that ->
Sitting with her in the car while we wait for her 6 (!!!) prescriptions. Me: Let my wipe the blood off your chin you look like a recently fed vamp.
Ewe: *muffled* but my street cred.
Drove the 80 minutes home like this. (I was with her in the back.) It was the only way she'd fall asleep.
No matter what comes next, I'm always going to be there to catch your hand my wee lamb. There is no determination greater than the love I have for my brave girl.
I'm non-binary and it's complicated.
It shouldn't have to be, but it is. Most people who know me in real life, don't really see me. How many recoiled just with switching my name years ago. I have my partner and my kids who know and love me for me, and it has to be enough. 1/3
(Sitting at a buffet for Haylee's dinner.)
Moo: Please, no! I have a family! NOOOOO *eats marshmallow.*
Me: ....
Moo: Reconsider! I'll give you anything! *eats marshmallow*
Me: Moo, I think it's time to keep the voices inside, you know, like the rest of us do.
I think I barely slept. I've never felt so tired and still unable to sleep before. This whole time I've just wanted the tumor gone, but now that the day is finally here my anxiety feels so high, I might be sick.
Keep my Ewe in your thoughts today.
Today I stopped stream early because Ewenice was going for dinner with some of her father's family and wanted me to curl her hair for her.
I will slam the brakes for my kids if it means making them feel more confident and happy.
Always.
Thanks for understanding.
My tweet regarding a failed attempt to come out as nonbinary to my mom has received a lot of attention. That also means the inevitable negative sort. Please avoid the comments section if you are particularly sensitive.
Moo (my pre-teen son): *gaming with friend from school.* Oh for fudge's sake. (He did not say fudge.)
Me: (from the other room) Hey, watch your language!
His bedroom door opens up and he peers out with narrow eyes.
Moo: I get it from yooooou.
Children aren't 'resilient.' Sometimes life goes by so quickly that it is easy to forget to listen to them. Help them feel confident. Nurture their passions. Spend. Time. With. Them. Social links to this project in the next tweet
#VtubersUprising
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@thesheeplys
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Whether you're for or against the new HP game, man, this TikTok does bring up some valid points.
I dislike transphobic rhetoric, I won't be playing the game because I want my community to feel safe in my space.
But...I am not about to judge people playing the game, either.
The funny thing about being harassed IRL? The handful of bigots online suddenly seem entirely powerless. They could type all the hateful things they like, but at the end of the day they are one block button away from disappearing.
Imagine being so inconsequential.
Every year before Easter, they do a cake walk at the kids school. Where parents bring in cake for the kids to bid on with lottery tickets that get pulled at the end of the day.
Really tempted to make one in trans pride colours, just so Karen has to stare at it.
But I won't.
Please take note: I am a bad friend. You don't actively want me as a friend. Not because I'm mean/cruel, but I forget about plans. I go silent for weeks or months. I watch a lot of vtubers maintain so many friendships with each other... I do not have that capability. 1/4
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Dear Trans Friends: It was just made public that the shooter in Highland Park IL dressed as a woman so that they could go unnoticed during the shooting. I love you all so much and want you to be prepared for the inevitable backlash this will cause. 1/2