✨HEAR YE! HEAR YE!✨️
I am absolutely THRILLED to announce that I am now represented by the indomitable™
@KeirAlekseii
at
@jenazantian
's Azantian Literary!
Keir's enthusiasm for my queer little books has me so humbled. 😭 I cannot wait for us to take publishing by storm!
My embryo transfer failed... and none of the other embryos from this retrieval survived.
So that's it. Dream over. $165,000.00 wasted. IVF has ruined my life. I wish I could go back in time to 2020 and make different decisions.
I wish I had never started this process.
Five egg retrievals.
10 embryo transfers.
19 embryos
7 early miscarriages
1 late term miscarriage
$165,000.00
90 lbs gained from medications
I've lost all sense of who I am as a person. I've lost my independence. I've lost my self-love. I have nothing left but grief.
@lolarites
That's why I try to post openly about the process. I wouldn't discourage anyone from trying, but I think people need to know how traumatic it is, and how awful it can really be. Thank you
I appreciate everyone's well wishes and kind words, and I love those of you defending me from some of the unsavory comments so much.
I may need to mute this soon though. I had no idea it would take off like this, and it's starting to overwhelm me.
@caralenastweet
Yes this!!
When I lost my son at 18 weeks, everyone either 1. said the wrong thing (someone actually made jokes about it) or 2. they ignored me and hoped I'd get over it and be fun again.
I lost 90% of my friends because they didn't know how to just say "Hey I'm here for you."
I wanted to share this blog post I made after losing my son a year ago. People have said my words help, so maybe these will help as well.
TW: parent loss, late-term miscarriage
@DaveVescio
Wait, who the hell is reporting this as "real" news? I've known about this for weeks and it's VERY clear by the facebook event that it's a joke. The whole discussion thread is filled with jokes, and the event description is too. It was made to make people laugh.
In light of the Cait Corrain scandal, I think it's important that we band together in support of the targeted authors. I've seen lists of their names, but I want to make it as easy as possible for people, so here is a thread with links!
If I forgot anyone, please let me know!
@ambsmcbride
As an ace, YES PLEASE. I have gone stag to so many weddings and it's all fine until people start dancing and I just end up sitting awkwardly and pretending to enjoy myself.
My father is a hobby chef. He taught my mother to cook. He taught me and my sisters to cook. Now he's teaching my nephew how to cook.
Get out of here with this shitty take.
Okay, I actually have to mute this now because I am going put and don't want my phone blowing up while I am driving.
I love you all. Thank you for your amazing words of kindness and comfort. ♡
Not only is my mom having a good day... but even though I withdrew my active queries last week to take a mental break, today I got a response from a query I had marked as CNR.
IT WAS A FULL REQUEST!!!
"Never settle for less."
Look at this GORGEOUS character art of Kit Davenport and pirate Captain Sharpe from my book "THE BRINE PRINCE"
Art by the amazingly talented
@_tasiams
I can't get over how PERFECTLY she captured both of them! From their looks, to their personalities!
@chamomeriam
Someone told me my characters (16-19) were "fucking idiots" and they hated them because they made bad decisions. 😭😂
The bad decision was them sneaking into a wizard's shop to find evidence of dark magic. Classic YA misadventures. Scooby-Doo level antics.
I'm not ready to post on Facebook yet... but my baby boy is gone. His heart stopped beating some time in the last week.
I will never get to hold him. I had just started working on his nursery.
I will never be the same after this. I'm devastated. My heart is completely broken.
@ArwenElessar3
I agree. That's exactly why I talk about it. I hope to write a book about my experience when I can put enough emotional distance between myself and it.
I wish people would stop making cichet married couples the default for their entire world view.
I am SINGLE.
I am QUEER.
Relaxing is not going to magically make me pregnant. Going on vacation is not going to magically make me pregnant.
@polyeaster
I did write them off last year! and I will again this year. It is a small help. I am a business owner so instead of paying weekly taxes, I pay one lump sum at the end of the year and last year I owed nothing because of IVF. I imagine this year will be the same.
I got a rejection tonight from an agent I REALLY like and while I am bummed, it was the first personalized rejection I have gotten in this entire process and it was so kind and uplifting that I can't even be sad about it.
#amquerying
Okay the consesus seems to be that everyone knows its tea. I had a few people mark notes next to where my MC mentioned the taste of Earl Grey they had no idea what it was and thought I was being pervy. I just wanted to make sure I didn't need to literally spell out that it's tea.
@sophietcohen
It should also be mentioned that many SA survivors write about SA as a coping mechanism. For many, it's a way to take control and power back. It can be cathartic and therapeutic to get it out.
It is fine to not want to read it but it's not okay to auto-shame those who do.
@arielleurban
I wish you all the best and all the baby dust in the world. May your journey be a thousand times easier than mine, and be fruitful in the end. <3
#afterseptember11
a cashier called the cops on my dad for buying milk, bacon, and eggs on his way home from work.
My sister was called "Osama's Daughter" at school.
My classmates started calling me "sand n*gger" and "terrorist" and leaving drawings of my death in my desk.
I haven't talked about it yet, but the same week all that information about the agency that dropped a bunch of clients came out, my agency also fired my agent, leaving everything up in the air for me.
I don't want to put my agent on blast, for her communication with me has been
I met a lovely young writer today who is working on a fantasy novel set in the mansion I run tours for, so naturally I gave them my phone number and offered to give them a private tour whenever they wanted. 😭 I love meeting writers in the wild. ♡
Today is going to be extremely hard for me. Since losing my son late in the 2nd trimester, I had decided to try again.
Ten days ago I transferred my last embryo, and today is the blood test to find out if it took. I already know that it didn't from testing at home.
I don't owe anyone an explanation, HOWEVER, I know there are people who are not assholes and genuinely don't understand why I did ivf rather than adopt.
Allow me to start out by saying that I originally planned to adopt. Because of this, I knew I had to own a home first and be
Guess who got a 12 hour ban, while the people who said I deserved to lose my baby and called me a selfish c*nt were allowed to remain??
I'm clearly a menace to society.
Just got a rejection on one of my fulls. I'm bummed but the agent actually explained why she passed and was really sweet about it, so that definitely helps take the sting out of it.
#amquerying
I have lots of new followers because of my IVF post...so allow me to properly introduce myself!
Hey, I'm Katie, and I am a novelist from Massachusetts! I write both YA and Adult SFF and adventure books.
I have four cats, two adopted from a shelter, and two raised by hand by me!
Query stats:
Queries sent: 8
Fulls: 7
Passes: 1
Offers: 3
Time querying (don't hate me): 2 weeks 😅
I am going to put up a blog post about my querying experience this time around with my query letter. If you have questions you'd like answered, post them!
✨HEAR YE! HEAR YE!✨️
I am absolutely THRILLED to announce that I am now represented by the indomitable™
@KeirAlekseii
at
@jenazantian
's Azantian Literary!
Keir's enthusiasm for my queer little books has me so humbled. 😭 I cannot wait for us to take publishing by storm!
For the record, two days is a ridiculous amount of time to not tell people about something as huge as this.
My e-mails to her were professional and polite. She gave me her phone number, but assured me that SHE was going to pull my manuscript. I guess I'm supposed to mind read.
So, now we can't block people on Twitter?
What the fuck is the point of removing that feature?
I have people blocked for my safety. I have my stalker blocked for my safety.
finally. I was pregnant, I had an agent, I had interest from one of the big 5 pub houses. Now I am childless, agentless, and in complete fucking limbo with my book and I hate that they did this to us. I don't even know where to go from here. This sucks.
#writingcommunity
#afterseptember11
I was forced through a terrifying body search at the airport while I was travelling alone to visit my best friend who had moved. I was 13.
I went from being just another white girl to being too brown for white people, but never brown enough for brown people.
I was not prepared for how hard it would be to have to decline offers. Every single offer I got was amazing, and the agents were phenomenal. Any one of them would have been a wonderful fit.
Sending out these emails is so heartbreaking. I can't imagine doing this regularly. 😭😭
I feel genuinely happy for the first time in two years. I literally woke up this morning just... happy.
Whether I get picked or not,
#PitchWars
was a goal of mine for 4 years and I finally did it. Now my bookbaby is finally ready for querying.
I am absolutelty THRILLED to announce that I am officially represented by
@WordsmithJenn
of
@gold_literary
! Her enthusiasm for The Daffodil Witch and me as a writer has absolutely floored me and I could not be happier!
Here's to 2023 and the next steps for my messy little witch!
@probably_margot
Yes! Adoption was my FIRST choice, but I wasn't elligible to adopt being single, with a mediocre income, poor credit, etc. They wouldn't even consider me.
Same with fostering, the house I owned at the time could not be made safe to foster standards.
I hope this doesn't come off as bragging, but what is happening in my "querying" inbox right now is so overwhelming and I don't know how to handle it.
I thought I knew what I was getting into querying the second time around, but, y'all, this is a whole different ballgame. 😭
It's strange how family members react to writers, isn't it? Before she died, my mom told me she would never read a word I wrote.
And on Christmas the other day, our guest asked my sisters if they liked my writing and they said they had no intention of ever reading my work.
@NicoleLewisLCSW
Yes! The only good reason to wake a child up on break is if you have something exciting planned like a morning at the beach or a theme park. Otherwise, let them sleep!
My darling #
#amquerying
writers, please make sure you block this man and do not query him.
The only reason I don't have him blocked is so I can see when he has commented on something and can warn potential victims.
😭 My clinic just called with the results from my retrieval. I was totally expecting her to tell me none of my eggs fertilized... but, in fact, ALL FIVE OF THEM DID.
This was my 5th retrieval and by far the best. I've never gotten this many fertilized embryos. I'm so relieved!
@XiranJayZhao
My dad is the opposite. I told him I wrote over 11k words in one day the other day, and he was like "yeah but is it any good? Don't write crap just cause you're in a rush."
I was like 🙃
Today, my older sister asked for a copy of my manuscript so she could read it. 🥺 No one in my family has ever wanted to read my writing before. Ever.
In fact, they have always vehemently refused to do so.
@kalaelizabeth
It's because younger generations grew up having the internet at their fingertips from birth and having it all curated exactly to their desires. Now that they're getting older and seeing that the internet isn't made specifically only for them and there are other things that exist
@ForsettisCreed
@emrazz
It's not even that they care about their daughters. It's that their daughters are their property and they don't want anyone "damaging their property."
they have completely ghosted me. It's been six weeks and I haven't heard a peep from them. I get that things move slow in publishing, but this is my career. It should not take six weeks to communicate with someone who is your client.
Last year I thought I had everything in place
So I lost my entire manuscript last night. I'm not even sure how it happened... in the middle of working on it, it just crashed and will no longer open. Every back up version of it is also corrupted somehow, and all the restore points are gone.
Goodbye,
#TheDaffodilWitch
...
I'm starting to feel ready to write again. I think it'll be a good escape from this crushing depression.
Today I decided to dedicate my pirate WIP to Lawrie. It felt so right when I added the dedication. I hope it'll help me associate positive memories with him from now on.
Not to add fuel to the fire, but I can't tell y'all how relieved I am to see people speaking up.
This person has been setting off red flags for me since I first encountered them over a year ago, before they got their 1st agent. I thought I was the only one this whole time. 😭
Today I am going to my clinic for a procedure to prep me for tomorrow: embryo transfer day.
I've been prepping for this since May. Two major surgeries and months of putting my body through hell so I could try one more time.
I'd appreciate some positive energy sent my way!
#ivf
6 long years
9 failures
4 miscarriages
2 retrievals
1 corrective surgery
20 follicles
5 embryos
4 transfers
Hundreds of injections
Countless tears
And I think I'm quite ready for another adventure. Coming Summer 2023.
#ivf
#infertility
#pcos
#pregnancy
#rainbowbaby
@natashajconti
@ElyKreimendahl
No it's the straights. So many of my female straight friends are horrified that I'm friends with my exes. It's so weird.
The lab called me this morning. None of my embryos survived, so if my fresh transfer on Wednesday didn't take... that's the end of the road for me.
I'm devastated by the news, but a small part of me is holding out a sliver of hope that this transfer will take.
#ivf
#infertility
For funsies, this was the reason for the tweet. lol I wanted to see if people would understand what this line meant because I had a few people ask who Earl Grey was, and why Percy's mouth tasted like him lmao